Ode to grace

I have tried to find reasons to hate

Reasons to fight

Reasons to forge

Reasons to care

Reasons to die

Reasons to spare

I have found many

But I have only found none

There are no reasons to live

And no reasons to die

The are no reasons to love

No reasons to hate

But here is an ode to grace

an ode to grace

an ode to grace

I never thought I would write you a love song but here I am singing it.

I never thought I would be a monk either but here I am, on my way to god, infinity, and death. For I always thought death’s embrace could only be sweet. Bitter for the people who’d stay behind but sweet for the person who’d go on. But today, I woke up from a nightmare

I woke up with tears in my eyes

I was go gonna be a monk who'd leave everything behind

all attachment, all fury, all of the love, and all of the hate.

Only I knew this

I didn’t tell anyone

I was above all that.

I met a few people who were leaving for a different country

they did nice things

said their farewells

they said they’d meet again

said they’ll be back soon

Oh but my heart broke with every goodbye

I wanted to sing them songs

give them everything I owned

tell them there wouldn’t be a meet you again or a see you soon

For I was the one leaving

leaving to be a broken hearted monk

When I woke up I didn’t want to ever die

I realized I didn’t want to leave everything behind

but knowing exactly what I'd be losing

made it easier to find what I was looking for

love is what I would lose

and love is what I would find